African American Depressive Sad Broken Heart Concept

DEPRESSION PART 2:

JUDITH {not Her real name} has a story to tell, full of tears and regret!

So i joined College 2011,June that year i got PREGNANT!

When I learnt about it went for ABORTION!
I thought all went well until the 5th Month i realized the ABORTION wasn’t successful!

Went to another Hospital {name withheld} and got admitted for 3 days. That was the MOST PAINFUL PART OF MY LIFE!

I went and was given some tabs ndio mimba itoke haikutoka!

Had to go to a THIRD one {name witheld}, Now here i met Devil herself!
Baby was removed by method ya kuingizwa chuma huko ndani mtoto atolewe!
I bled so much but along it was well!
THIS WAS THE MOST PAINFUL THING EVER HAPPENED TO ME!

Remember am the FIRST BORN in our family,no way i could have managed to give birth to set a BAD PRECEDENT to my siblings!

I finished school in 2014 and went for attachment, sadly enough I got PREGNANT AGAIN!

Nkaenda hosi {name witheld}, this time around it was smooth for their professionalism!

Here my life took a turn around of events! Hated myself so bad!
i would regret why i was born!

I chose a new path, remeMber life was hell looking for jobs and kibaruas!

NB: After 2 ball i decided to be safe and i did coil!

Now i turned myselft to MARRIED MEN! Life became smooth for the pampering and outings! I was introduced by a friend!
I even lost the count how many came my way!

After a failed jobs search went back to village!

CHURCH LIFE:
Usisahau all that time i used to go to church and LEAD the PRAISE AND WORSHIP.

2017 nikawacha this habbit and went back to church i would cry day and night regretting my life!
I started working in a shambas, being a mtu wa kufulia watu manguo!

BACK SLIDE:
later in end 2017 i was recalled where i had attachment and i used to meet previous rented boyfriends…nikarudia ile tabia!

LOST JOB:
In few months time i was retrenched,and had to go back to the village!

SUICIDE:
In the village i thought as FIRST BORN in the family i’m a LET DOWN TO MY PARENTS AND SIBLINGS!
I tried to commit suicide but it faile,i think the syrup wasn’t strong enough!

Now this turned out to be the worst nightmare, failed suicide!!!
ULCERS started to hit me hard at times i vomit BLOOD.

TURNING TO GOD:
Prince I have been to hell and back!
I’M 27yrs and feel so sad.
I want to turn back to GOD, and i took a bold step of going to church on sundays!
But ctaki kuingia tena praise and worship..though i love singing.

Right now am back to LORD ways seriously,i always look for mentorship kindly walk with me!

I’M passionate about kids,and education.

HEALING:
I’ve healed kabisa no turning back to suicidal thoughts again,praying LORD will see me through!

PARTING SHOT AND ADVISE TO ANYONE GOING THE SAME:
I want to tell young girls;
ABORTION KILLS!
We pass through so much in life,some things you don’t anyone to know and you go with them to GRAVE with but eats you so much!
I know we are all afraid of the society for being judgemental!

DON’T DIE KINDLY SHARE IN TRUST AND SEEK HELP!

I want to be a better person and am seeking CHRIST DAILY.
LET’S KEEP OFF RELATIONSHIPS AT YOUNG AGE!

GOD BLESS YOU FOR THIS BOLD STEP YOU TOOK, KINDLY REACH OUT TO MANY WE ARE SUFFERING IN SILENCE!

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SHARING IS CARING!

#GodABOVEall

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